the pre-race big run

I did 20 miles last Sunday, a smooth run in cloudy weather. It also helped that the week before I bailed out mid-run.

I had planned for 19, but it got so hot that I walked off the course after mile 13. Could not decide for a long time whether this was wise or lazy. Contrary to expectations, I did not feel guilty.

But after a few days I started questioning whether I run enough. A runner told me once that doubting if one does enough and forcing oneself to run more is a sign one has become a runner. I don't think this just happened to me. I think I simply do not run enough.